Imagine life as a train journey. We board at birth, chugging steadily forward along a pre-defined track, each stop a milestone – childhood, adolescence, adulthood. This is the linear perception of time, a constant march towards an unknown destination. Yet, nestled within this journey exists another dimension of time – the spiral of consciousness. This essay explores the seeming contradiction between the linear flow of life and the cyclical nature of our internal experience.



On the surface, life undeniably follows a linear path. Birthdays mark the passage of years, calendars remind us of days gone by. We graduate, move on from jobs, build relationships, all strung together on the invisible thread of chronology. Deadlines loom, responsibilities pile up, propelling us forward in this seemingly relentless current. There's a comfort in this linearity – a sense of direction, a framework for making sense of our experiences. We plan for the future, learn from the past, all within this linear framework.



However, beneath the surface of this linear flow lies a more complex reality – the spiral of consciousness. Memories don't fade into a neat line. They resurface, often triggered by seemingly random sights, smells, or sounds. We revisit past experiences through a lens shaped by new information, new emotions. A childhood memory, for instance, might hold a different meaning now, revealing a deeper understanding of ourselves or our relationships.



This cyclical nature of consciousness is further evidenced by recurring themes in our lives. We might grapple with the same insecurity throughout different phases, or find ourselves drawn to similar situations repeatedly. These cycles, while potentially frustrating, offer opportunities for growth. Each time we revisit a theme, we have the chance to learn, adapt, and break free from the cycle's hold.



The paradox between linear time and spiraling consciousness lies in their co-existence. Linearity provides structure, a sense of cause-and-effect that helps us navigate life. The spiral of consciousness, on the other hand, injects a layer of depth and richness. It allows for learning, growth, and a deeper understanding of ourselves.



So, how do we reconcile these seemingly contradictory aspects of time? I have found that spiraling the cell back in a backward loop using mental gravity can create a linear time like a spring which is pulled back and tightened. Actually we are not going back in linear time. Even when time contracts, it does not affect cause-and-effect relationships. Events are never truly "undone" on the linear scale.
We are pulling the spiral loops closer so there is a contraction in linear time which becomes visible in the projection.



Life may appear as a linear journey on paper, but our internal experience paints a different picture. It's a journey on a train track, yes, but a journey where we're constantly learning, growing, and evolving with each loop of the spiral. Perhaps time is inherently paradoxical, existing as both a flowing river and a fixed dimension. It's okay to acknowledge the mystery and hold seemingly contradictory ideas.